Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I "Heart" Baseball

Spring is officially upon us, and that can only mean one is back in town.  As some of you may know, I'm a baseball junkie.  This will be the 5th summer we've had Kansas City Royal's season tickets, and I look forward to it every year.  Yes, the Royal's aren't exactly known for having a good team, but it's still fun to be at the ballpark, no matter the outcome of the game.   Who doesn't love the sunshine on their face, America's National Pasttime, and the smell of ballpark food?

This brings me to what could possibly be on of the biggest snags in my weight-loss journey.  Since we have season tickets, that means we have tickets to 81 games this summer.  Eventually, I know the smell of the ballpark food is going to win me over.  It does every year.  The hot dogs I can actually leave alone...unless they are from Dugout Doghouse downstairs.  My favorite is the All-Star BBQ Dog, complete with brisket, coleslaw, bbq sauce, and dill pickles all on top of the hot dog.  And of course it has to be washed down with a Shiner Bock beer.  Don't forget about the chili cheese fries, the mega nacho's, and loaded tater tots either.  And now I find out that there's a new sandwich this year which includes a breaded and fried pork loin, grilled onions, and fried dill pickles, plus sweet potato fries!  Oh, and I can't forget about the Sheridan's Frozen Custard store.  This could be disasterous if I let it be disasterous.

But I have a plan.  I know, imagine, me having plan.  I don't do anything without a to-do list.  Anyways, I have a plan.  I have a plan for getting through baseball season while still losing a pound a week.  For starters, I'm also going to be training for a 5K so I'll be getting a lot more exercise.  Second, I'm going to make sure that there is always something in the fridge or freezer that's easy to heat up for dinner before games.  That will keep me from having to eat at the ballpark.  I'm also going to be taking a lot of fruit and veggies with 0 point ranch dip to the park with me.  Thank goodness they let you bring food in. 

Tomorrow is opening day, and I can't do opening day without getting something at the ballpark.  It's un-American.  But in an effort to not completely sabotage my day, my husband and I are getting up and walking 6 miles tomorrow morning.  Granted we're walking to breakfast, but it totally fits within my points for the day. 

Go Royals!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Time For A Challenge

So I've decided to run in a 5k in August.  I knew that I was going to need some extra motivation to keep moving during baseball season and I figured this was a good way to accomplish that.  Susan G. Komen is sponsoring a 5k on August 14 in Kansas City.  A few years ago I walked it.  It was hard, but a lot of fun.  I've had several family members with breast cancer so it's a cause near and dear to my heart.  So here I sit, with a little over 19 weeks before race day, and I've got a lot of work ahead of me.  Last night I was chasing the dog around the house and after 2 minutes I was huffing and puffing and had to sit down.

I'm going to be imparting the help of the wonderful Couch 2 5k app.  I've used it before, but have never gotten past week 2.  It's a 9 week program.  It alternates between walking and running for a specific period of time, 3 days a week, and bumps up the run portion each week.  I have a feeling it's going to take me a week to get through week 1 day 1, but that's ok.  At least I'm doing it.  My husband has even sweetened the pot by offering to buy me new clothes if I run the whole thing.  How's that for motivation?

I'm hoping this extra effort will help keep the scale moving in the right direction.  If I stay on plan, I'll be 31 pounds lighter by race day.  That should help tremendously!  I think I'm going to need some mini-goals along the way to help me stay motivated and focused.  I think I'll reward myself for every week of C25K I successfully complete.  Successfully completing week one equals a new pair of work-out pants!

Friday, March 25, 2011

Weekly Recap

Well, if you look at my posts from the beginning of the week, you'd think it was going to be a horrible week.  In reality, it's actually ending on a pretty good note.  I didn't hit my goals this week.  I ended up eating some of my activity points, which I don't normally do, I've only drank all of my water 1 or 2 days, and I didn't earn 30 activity points.  But you know what?  I did the best I could do this week and I'm ok with that.  I think it helps that the scale finally started moving down, and not just for a day.  It's been consistently down since about Tuesday or Wednesday.  It's so much easier to stay on plan when the scale is moving in the right direction.  I don't want to jinx it, but I think I might hit my 5% goal tomorrow. 

It's been a crazy month.  There's been loads of stress, medication changes, trips, quitting smoking, changes in eating habits from not going out for lunch, unreliable weather, and a few pitty parties.  But all in all it hasn't been as terrible as I've made it out to be.  I know this isn't going to be an easy road.  There are going to be ups and downs along the way.  I just need to figure out how to better deal with the scale moving up so it doesn't send me into a tailspin.

Things are going to start getting tricky come next Thursday because the baseball season is starting.  We have season tickets for the Royals so between the end of March and the end of Septebmer we will be spending quite a lot of time at the ballpark.  Sometimes I can handle the smell of the yummy foods quite well, other times not so much.  We are allowed to take in food and water which will help, but I'm still scared.  It's also going to make working out a bit harder the weeks we have games.  Let's face it, I'm not a morning person and the likelyhood that I will get myself up and to the gym in the morning is slim.  I'm really going to have to watch my food during game weeks.  I'm also going to have to get creative with dinner's because we usually take dinner to the ballpark with us.  One good thing is they are going to be serving sweet potato fries this year which tend to be a bit healtheir than regular french fries. 

The goals for next week are going to be the same as this week:  eat my daily and weekly points but no more, drink at least 6 glasses of water a day, and earn 30 activity points.   

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I'm A Sucker For A Cupcake

So the running didn't go so well last night.  I managed to only jog 2 blocks.  It was sad.  I was huffing, and puffing, and couldn't catch my breath.  My chest was on fire.  It felt like I had smoked half a pack of cigarettes while I was running.  But inspite of all of that, I still walked at a faster pace than I normally do. 

Dinner was fantastic, as always.  A yummy salad of field greens, with grilled steak, grilled onions, tomatoes, and balsamic vinagrette, and some sweet potato fries with pineapple aioli really hit the spot.  Up by the register they keep a fantastic display of yummy sweets.  The red velvet cupcake was calling my name.  It was pretty big and, unfortunately, Kevin refused to split it with me.  But there was a solution.

There is a coffee shop here in town that has the best red velvet cupcakes I've ever had in my life.  The icing tastes like vanilla ice cream, and the cake itself is very moist, but not so moist that it gums up in your mouth.  There is such a thing as a piece of cake that is too moist.  But I digress...these cupcakes at The Roasterie are fantastic, and what's even better is they have baby ones too!

We were starting on our way home from The Mixx when I decided that I really needed something sweet.  The Roasterie is 3 miles down the road, the opposite direction from the house, and there is nothing in between here and there.  I decided that it was worth walking 6 miles round trip for a red velvet cupcake from The Roasterie.  I think I'm a little bit insane.

Never in my life has a cupcake tasted so good, and it was worth every step.  What's even more exciting is the walk showed up on the scale this morning.  It's been kind of slow this week but the scale has been moving in the right direction.  Apparently a treck for a sweet was just the ticket to give it a jump start.  Now, hopefully I can keep it moving in the right direction!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Go Big or Go Home

This morning I was really dreading going to water aerobics tonight.  I'm just not feeling it, plus my gas tank is on E and I really don't have the cash to put any gas in my car until pay day on Friday.  I was stressing about it big time.  Well, remember how the other day I said that I had to be bribed with dinner to go for a walk?  My hubby was nice enough to do that for me today!  I texted him saying I was craving The Mixx, and he offered to buy me dinner if I walked down there with him.  Done deal.  A yummy salad and sweet potato fries will get me every time.  But I'm wasn't really looking forward to the walk, I was looking forward to the food. 

Well, I decided to up the ante.  Since I'm not going to water aerobics I feel as though I need to earn at least the same equivalent amount of activity points in my walk.  It only takes about 30-40 minutes to walk to the restaurant so that's not going to net me a lot of points.  All of the sudden I got the crazy idea of trying to jog there...or at least part of the way.  I texted my husband and he told me that I better bring my "A" game!  I'm a little scared.  I know he'll push me, which could end up being a bigger problem then my actual ability to jog.  But at any rate, I'm going to try jogging to dinner tonight.  I will let you know how it goes!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I Know I'm Being Completely Irrational, But I Need A Moment

I'm bored.  I'm really bored.  I am very quickly losing my drive and motivation for this weight loss journey.  At first it was all fun, and new, and exciting.  The pounds were coming off like clock-work, the plan was easy to follow, and I could still eat the foods that I loved and that most people would have to give up on a diet.  Now, I'm bored.  The newness has worn off.  The pounds are not coming off, in fact I haven't lost anything since February.  The plan is still easy to follow, and I still indulge in foods I love every once in a while, but I'm bored with my menu.  There are only so many different things you can do.  That's probably why previously I'd lose 10 pounds and then gain 20.  I would go eat at every restaurant I loved for 2 or 3 months straight. 

You know what's funny?  I was never a snacker before I joined Weight least during the day at work.  I never brought anything with me other than the occaisional breakfast and lunch.  Now, if I'm not snacking every couple of hours I go crazy!  The sad thing is, I'm so bored with my current snacks I want to hit myself over the head with my keyboard every time I see them in my drawer.  But yet somehow I can't seem to survive the day without them. 

It makes it hard to be excited when you plateau after 2 months for little to no reason.  My first big gain was totally my bad, because I spent the better part of a week eating off plan and not tracking anything that went into my mouth.  I had no idea that was going to stall me out completely.  I figured that if I was really good the following week that pound and a half would just drop off.  Silly me.  How dare I think rationally?

Even water aerobics is getting boring for me.  Last week was not much fun and I just keep thinking about when it would be over.  My muscles were burning like crazy during class, but I wasn't the least bit sore afterwards.  And it didn't help with the scale.  I'm really not looking forward to driving over there for it tomororw.  In fact, the thought of going to the gym at all makes me sleepy.  I've been going for walks with the hubby and the puppy, but those are getting boring as well.  About the only way for someone to get me out of the door for a walk is to bribe me with food in the middle of it.  I know, not real healthy.

More often than not these days I just want to give up and go eat half a cheesecake at Cheesecake Factory, or a couple orders of crab tots at M&S Grill.  But I know that's not going to help me.  I know that's not going to get me over my boredom.  I know I'll hate myself in the morning.  So I keep planning, and tracking, and prepping my food according to the plan and I continue on...bored as ever. 

I guess this just goes to show that this journey is not a sprint, it's a marathon.  I've never been good at sticking with things long term.  I think I have ADD.  I get bored easily and I'm at that point right now.  Something needs to excite me, and quick, or I could be in trouble!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Hallelujah, Praise Jesus!

The scale was finally down this morning!!!  I know it's not really a good idea to weigh yourself every day, but if I don't I tend to go way off track.  I also needed to see that things were moving in the right direction.  I have kind of pigged out for the last 3 days.  Apparently that's exactly what my body has needed.  I'm super excited for this week now!

Yesterday I didn't do so well at hitting my goals for the week.  I only got in 5 out of my 6 glasses of water, and I didn't earn any activity points.  I did however eat all of my daily points, and quite a few of my weekly points.  I went to Granite City with my folks after I picked them up from the airport.  They have this appetizer called Idaho Nachos.  It's basically a ginormous plate of waffle fries topped with cheese, bacon, tomatoes, green onions, and sour cream.  Then they serve it with a sour cream dip with dill and other spices.  I decided to get a dinner salad to start and then we split a plate of the Idaho Nachos.  It was high point, but oh so tasty!

Today I've almost made up for the no activity yesterday.  After breakfast we decided to take the puppy for a walk.  I have a lot I need to do around the house today and we were hoping this would make her sleep for most of the day.  We wandered around for almost 2 hours which earned me a lovely 7 activity points.  Couple that with the cleaning I need to do and I'll be good.  Now I've just gotta start drinking some water.  I haven't had any yet today. 

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Ready To Make This A Better Week

Well, weigh-in was this morning.  I gained .8 this week.  I think it has to do with 3 things.  #1: I ate less than I normally do, #2: quitting smoking can mess with your metabolism, #3: I'm on a higher dose of birth control.  More estrogen, less nicotine, and less calories threw my body into a tail spin.  I'm back to only 8 pounds lost which is really depressing.

This week has got to go better.  My psyche cannot handle seeing another gain next week.  I need to come up with a good strategy and set some goals for this week. 

My first goal for this week is to track all of my food and eat all of my weekly points.  It seems backwards, but sometimes you have to eat more to lose weight.  It's kind of funny that I struggled with this issue this week because we talked about it in the meeting this morning.  My leader told us that research has shown that Weight Watcher's members who use their weeklies lost weight better and faster, as well as stick with the program longer.

My second goal for this week is to earn at least 30 activity points.  That's a little over 4 a day, which I can earn by doing an hour of housework.  I earned a fair amount last week, but I know I need to be moving more.  It's sad, but I'm actually moving less now that I'm not smoking because I'm not walking from my desk to the parking garage multiple times a day at work. 

My third goal for this week is to drink all of my water every day.  I've been getting about half of it in every day, but I really need to be drinking it all.  Time to put some Diet Snapple in the fridge, because it counts :). 

Now, off to eat some more points!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I Just Don't Get It!

I have been really, really good this week.  I've been drinking my water.  I've been eating healthy foods.  I haven't gone out to eat since Saturday night for dinner, and that was sweet potato fries!  I've only been eating my daily points, for the most part...I have dipped into my weeklies a little bit, but normally they would have been gone by Sunday or Monday night.  I've been moving too!  I got in a good walk on Saturday, water aerobics last night, and I've done a ton of house work.  I think I've only sat down to watch maybe 3 or 4 hours of TV all week.  But the scale hasn't budged one bit!  Well, it has, but it's up! (only a tiny bit though). 

I just don't get it!  I'm doing what I should.  On paper, this is the best week I've had since I joined Weight Watchers.  I was expecting to have a big loss this week since I was so bad last week and I'm being really good this week.  It makes no sense to me whatsoever. 

I'm trying not to think about the fact that this has happened to me in the past.  Every time I've ever been on Weight Watchers when I've gotten down to around the 200 mark it all goes horribly wrong.  No matter what I do or how hard I work I have a hard time breaking that mark and staying under it.  I know it's all has to be, right?  But I really do feel like my body doesn't want to go below that mark. 

I know in my head that I just need to work the program and do what I know I should do and the scale will catch up, but it's extremely frustrating. And it's really hard to stay on track when you feel like you aren't making any progress.  I wasn't expecting my first plateau at 10 weeks. I'm kind of thinking that since my body was used to getting those weekly points every week that maybe it's not liking me eating less this week.  I know it sounds counter intuitive, but I know that can happen sometimes.  I think I've decided that I'm going to treat myself and use all 24 weekly points that I have left between today and tomorrow.  Maybe it'll work, maybe it'll backfire, but what do I have to lose as this point?

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Forgive Me, But I'm Lazy

Yes, you read that right...I'm lazy.  And I fully admit to it.  If there is a short-cut, I will take it.  If something can be put off until tomorrow, I procrastinate.  Especially when it's something I really don't want to do.  Most of the time, that involves cooking.  Every once in a while I will get a crazy notion and cook some huge, elaberate dinner.  But that is not the norm.  That happens maybe twice a year...and that's a huge maybe.  I prefer to have someone else do the cooking and cleaning, which is probably why I spend a good quarter of my paycheck at different restaurants.  But those restaurants are playing havoc with my weight loss journey and it needs to end.  I need to make my own food at home.  That way I can better control the points and the portion size without having to guess. 

In an effort to do more food prep at home, I went to the grocery store and bought a whole bunch of what most would call convenience food.  Lets face it, I will never be a "clean" eater.  I'm just not cut out to prepare every meal from scratch and stick to only fresh fruits and veggies, as well as fresh cuts of meat.  Like I said in the intro, I'm lazy.  I don't see that changing any time soon.  But just because I prefer quick, easy, processed foods to fresh foods that take forever to prepare, doesn't mean I have to eat poorly. 

Take for instance my lunch for today.  I have a wonderful plate consisting of roast turkey and gravy, mashed sweet potatoes, and broccoli with cheddar sauce.  And I prepared all of it in the microwave in about 10 minutes last night.  The entire, well balanced meal is only 345 calories, or 8 points.  Yes, I realize these products are higher in sodium than if I had prepared them fresh myself, but for me, the trade-off is worth it. 

I'm finding that it helps me a lot to have these quick solutions on hand for meals.  That way I'm not agonizing about what I have to cook, and how I don't have time, nor do I want to.  It makes it less tempting to heat up that can of Spaghettio's with Meatballs I still have sitting in my pantry, or running to a fast food restaurant.  Not to mention it's cheaper.  I've also started keeping some Hormel Complete Meals in my desk drawer at work.  They are all low point/calorie, filling, and shelf stable so I don't have to worry about people stealing them out of the fridge.  That way, if I'm too lazy the night before to microwave anything for lunch the next day, I always have one of these to save me from going out. 

I think I'm finally starting to find ways to make this my lifestyle.  A huge part of it was recognizing who I am and what works for me.  I'm lazy and convenience works for me.  This I am willing and able to do for the rest of my life. 

Sunday, March 13, 2011

The First Good Weekend

Today could have gone really badly in the eating department.  If I don't have a plan, I get myself in trouble.  Today, I was without a plan.

I knew that we were planning on going to see my mother-in-law at the hospital today, but what was up in the air was whether or not we were taking my father-in-law out to lunch, and if so, where we would be eating.  I had a really low point breakfast and lunch.  Each were only 4 points.  That left me with 23 points for the rest of the day.  You can eat out pretty easily on that many points. 

We ended up not taking my father-in-law to lunch; more like he refused to go.  But we still went out for a late lunch/early dinner.  We ended up at Dean and Deluca.  I LOVE this place!  We don't get to eat there very often because it's on the complete opposite side of town.  They do made to order sandwiches and salads, and they have a huge desert case.  They also have things that you can take home and heat up like chicken parm, eggplant parm, baked cod, crab name it, they have it.  Well, now they have a burger bar.  They had a delicious looking Cuban sandwich sitting on the counter.  I decided I was going to have that, but only eat half of it.  They also had paremsean fries, so me and the hubs split an order of those.  Half the sandwich was 12 points and the fries were 6.  All in all, not too shabby for some really good, indulgent food.  But then we went by the desert counter.  They had these gorgeous vanilla, buttercream cupcakes.  I'm a sucker for buttercream.  Since Kevin was getting a brownie I decided to get a cupcake.  Thank God the icing was so rich and the cupccake so terribly bad that I only took 2 bites.  That was 3 points.  So dinner was a total of 21 points.  Woo hoo!  That left me with 2 points.

I did end up breaking into my weeklies today.  I was actually still a bit hungry after we got home and wanted something salty so I had some chips, guac, and salsa.  I ended up going over by 5 points today, which I'm perfectly ok with.  In past weeks I would have used all of my weeklys by now, and I still have 44 of them. 

I also got in some activity points today too.  I have deemed that as long as I earn the same amount of activity points that I would earn in water aerobics, it counts as a work out.  Well, today I spent a good hour and a half doing stuff around the house.  I cooked a batch of breakfast stew, and a batch of individual chicken pot pies.  I also carried laundry upstairs, straightened up the first floor, and did the dishes.  Not to mention I think we walked about a mile round trip getting from the car to my mother-in-laws room and back to the car.  All of this earned me a solid 6 activity points, which is how many I earn for an hour of water aerobics.  Work-out number 2 for the week is complete!

I'm excited for this week.  I almost always have an easier time with my food during the week, so given how good the weekend went, I can't help but think this week is going to be spectacular!  I think this is just what I needed to get me back on track and to keep me on track.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Celebrating The Little Things

Weigh-in results this week: up 1.6 pounds to 201.6.  I can deal with that.  To be honest, I was expecting it to be higher given the last couple of weeks.  This gain is easy to come back from.  The only bummer is, I am now behind my 1 pound a week average...but only by .2 pounds.  I have lost 8.8 pounds, so I have 71.2 left to lose.

Today in group we talked about celebrating the little successes we have along our journey.  For me, one of those successes is the fact that after 9 weeks, I'm still doing this.  After having a couple of bad weeks, I'm back on track.  This is the first Saturday since I started Weight Watchers that I haven't used extra weekly points.  I think that's what's exciting me the most today!  I also wasn't tempted to buy a Kit Kat at the grocery store.

I got in a really good walk today, for my first workout of the week.  It was a gorgeous day today so we decided to take the puppy for a walk.  We didn't walk really fast, but we did a solid 3 miles.  The pup has really short legs, and a bum one at that, so she can't really go too fast.  We also stopped for lunch while we were out.  I'm addicted to sweet potatoes right now, any way I can get them.  I had a plate of sweet potato fries from The Mixx.  They were fantastic!  I'm kinda of thinking I should have given up this restaurant for Lent.

So far the week is off to a good start.  I would really like to drop 3-4 pounds this week.  I think it's doable, but I'm going to have to be very disciplined.  We'll see how it goes.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Do Or Do Not...There Is No Try

"Do or do not...there is no try."  Ah, the infamous words of Yoda.  He was a small, weird looking creature with a very unique voice, but he was incredibly smart and wise.  All week I've been saying to myself that I'm trying to get back on track.  I'm trying to make time for the gym.  I'm trying to quit smoking.  But I've realized that Yoda is right.  There is no try.  I am quitting smoking.  I am not back on track or making time for the gym.  This quote goes along with what my Weight Watcher leader said the first meeting I went to, "Hoping changes nothing.  A decision changes everything." 

I heard another quote last night that really struck a cord with me.  I was catching up on a couple episodes of The Biggest Loser.  The contestants were sent home for 2 weeks right in the middle of the competition.  One girl came back and lost something like 12 pounds.  When she was on the scale she said, "By saying no to the temptations at home, I was able to say yes to myself."  Wow.  That hit me really hard.  I had never thought about this journey as being able to say yes to myself.  By not tracking, not exercising, and not eating healthy things, I was disrespecting myself.  I wasn't allowing myself to be the best that I can be.  Talk about a mind shift. 

I think the theme of today's blog is quotes because here's another one.  Written on the wall of the Biggest Loser gym, there is as quote from Jillian Michaels - "You have to find a purpose, I cannot build desire."  Awesome, one more thing that smacked me on the forehead.  I hate working out.  It's a chore to me...except water aerobics.  I love water aerobics, but unfortunately my schedule only allows me to make 1 class a week.  So trying to get in more workouts is a huge struggle for me.  You would think that wanting to get healthy and skinny would be enough motivation to get to the gym, but so far that's not proving to be true. 

So here is what I'm going to do this next week.  These are the positive decisions I'm going to make to sucessfully continue on this journey. 
  1. I will track everything I eat this week and only eat the points I have available.
  2. I will work out 3 times during the week.
  3. I will cook dinner instead of going out to eat.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

The Lenten Season

Yesterday marked the first day of Lent.  I'm not too happy with Lent right now.  This year I'm giving up 3 things: going out to lunch during the work week, Kit Kats, and smoking.  You'd think, that out of these 3 things, the hardest thing for me to give up would be smoking.  I thought that too Tuesday night.  Oddly enough, it hasn't been too bad.  Ok, so yesterday morning was rough and I did cry at my desk for a minute.  But today hasn't been so bad.

Even the Kit Kats haven't been as hard as I thought.  Now, granted, today was the first time I've been faced with the temptation.  They had them in the check-out line at Office Depot.  But I just glanced past them.  No big deal.

What's really killing me is not going out to lunch during the work week.  It's so boring to just sit at my desk during my lunch break, especially now that I'm not getting outside for smoke breaks.  I'm thinking once the weather warms up I may start walking at lunch, but for now it's miserable.  I could go shopping, like I did today, but then I would spend money on things I don't need.  I do live close enough to go home for lunch, but letting the puppy out of her kennel for 40 minutes doesn't work.  She doesn't want to go back in.  Today I just had a really tough craving.  I wanted sweet potato fries from The Mixx.  I was trying to justify it in my head.  I had already said I would allow myself to go to the market and get a salad from the salad bar.  The Mixx serves salads.  I could get a salad, and then add the fries.  But I refrained. 

I think I still cheated a little bit on lunch though.  I haven't been feeling well for the last couple of days, today being the worst I've felt.  Well, whenever I'm sick, I always want Dorito's and Sprite.  So after I bought my photo paper, I went to the drug store and picked up a bag of Dorito's and a bottle of Diet Sprite to have as my lunch. 

I know most people usually give "up" something for Lent.  I'm giving up 3 things.  But I've also decided that I'm going to "do" something.  I'm going to blog every day.  I haven't been keeping up with it for the last few weeks and it's starting to show on the scale.   I need the accountability.  This may end up being the hardest thing for me these next 39 days!  Sometimes it's hard to force out an idea that isn't there.  But I'm going to do my best to make an entry every day.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Well That Didn't Go So Well

This week has been a train wreck.  Well, the last week and a half has been a trainwreck really.  Let me start at the beginning.

I had a rough go of it the beginning of last week.  I was hungry all the time, and I had that stupid guacamole in the house.  I realize I'm going to have weeks where I'm hungrier than others.  I'm a woman, that's the way things go.  But instead of eating the right food, like fruits and veggies, I ate everything that was bad for me.  What's even worse, I didn't care.  By the end of last week, I wasn't tracking any of the food I was eating.

Then came Saturday, and a somewhat impromptu trip to Michigan.  I flew out at 6am.  I wasn't feeling good when I got up so I didn't eat breakfast before I left.  My breakfast consisted of Bloody Mary Mix and a small bag of peanuts on the plane on my way to Detroit.  I actually tracked that when I got to the airport.  It was 3 points, the day was off to a good start.  Then I found a food stand that actually had really good fruit cups.  I bought one of those for 0 points.  Woo hoo!  But, (there's always a but)  I got a 20 ounce bottle of regular Mountain Dew, even though they had diet.  That was another 8 points, but I had a 3 point breakfast, so not a big deal.  After I got into Grand Rapids, Dad and I went to BD's Mongolian BBQ for lunch.  That's an awesome diet-friendly place to eat.  I got my whole plate of food for 6 points, but for some odd reason I ordered a beer.  I never order beer at lunch.  So tack on a few more.  This is where the tracking ended.  After this I had a McDonald's ice cream cone, then dinner at Outback.  That's normally a 10 point meal, but I got a ceasar salad and ate some bread and butter.  Then don't forget the Kit Kat after dinner. 

After dinner Saturday we went to the grocery store to buy healthy snacks for the car ride home.  I bought some veggie packs, melon, and beef jerkey.  Granated, the veggie packs came with little cups of ranch dressing, but they were super small. 

Sunday morning started off well too.  The hotel had a great breakfast.  I had some scrambled eggs with ham and cheese, a sausage patty, and an english muffin.  I think that was around 8 or 10 points.  Again, I didn't track it.  I was even good and got a Diet Mountain Dew for the road.  On our first pit stop, all good intentions went out the window when I bought some Cheddar and Sour Cream Ruffles, a Kit Kat, and a giant dill pickle.  Ok, so the pickle isn't horrible.  Lunch consisted of grilled chicken tenders, corn, hashbrown casserole, sweet carrots, coleslaw, and half a biscuit at Cracker Barrel.  I munched on the healthy snacks, and added another bag of beef jerkey to the mix.  I was good in the fact that I didn't eat dinner after I got home, but the hubby had bought me a Kit Kat, so I ate that.    Things could have gone so well on Sunday, but I gave up all will-power.

Yesterday I ate at a Chinese buffet for lunch, and then we went out for BBQ for dinner, including 2 alcoholic beverages.  Today, I had Japanese Tepanyaki for lunch, and then we went to a brazilian steakhouse for dinner.  Oh, and another Kit Kat.

I haven't logged anything since last Thursday.  I haven't been drinking my water.  I am terrified to weigh-in on Saturday.  I'm terrified to even get on the scale in the mornings.  I don't want to see how much I've gained this weekend. 

But, tomorrow is a new day.  The bad eating and bad food situations are over.  Tomorrow is the beginning of Lent.  I'm giving up a lot this year.  But it's going to force me to focus doing the right things and making the right choices.  Ya know what?  It is what it is.  What's done is done, and now I have to make good choices and quit wallowing in the bad choices. 

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

It's Going to be a Rough Couple of Weeks

I have found a new trigger food.  It's Wholly Guacamole 100 calorie packs.  I'm normally not a fan of guacamole.  I wouldn't even touch the stuff until we went to Jamaica last year.  While on vacation, I decided to be brave and try the guacamole.  It was fabulous!  But I hadn't been able to find anything that compared to it back in the states...until Saturday.  There are 5 packs in the box, and so far I've had 4.  It's only Tuesday.  I definately can't keep it in the house, at least not yet.  The guac in and of itself isn't bad...only 2 points.  It's the 4 points of chips I eat with it that are bad.  So no more guac for me for a while.

This coming weekend is going to be my biggest test since I started Weight Watchers in January.  I'm going out of town.  I'm flying to Michigan on Saturday morning and then riding back home with my dad on Sunday.  My flight leaves at 6am.  I can eat breakfast at home, which is good.  However, lunch and dinner on Saturday, and all 3 meals on Sunday will be eaten in restaurants.  Plus, the drive home on Sunday is going to be about 12 hours.  I have some favorite road trip foods, which includes Mountain Dew and Combos.  It's going to be hard to stay away from those while in the car.  Also, I have very little will-power when it comes to eating out.  I also feel like I have no control over where we're going to eat. 

I'm also not going to get a whole lot of activity in.  The few hours I'll actually be in Michigan will be spent either at the Hospital (visiting Grandma) or in the car.  My only hope is that the hotel has a gym and that I have the motivation to get down there and use it Saturday night.

The only good thing is I will have my phone which has a WW app on it so I can look up food values at different restaurants.  I know I can swap out the Mountain Dew for Diet, and the Combos for beef jerky.  I think we're going to take a cooler too so hopefully we can stop at a store and buy some apple slices and what-not.  I'm thinking a jar of pickles might be in order too.  They are high in sodium, but zero points!  I'll have to make sure to drink a ton of water, which will make the drive a little longer, but oh well.

Hopefully I don't blow it this weekend.  At first I thought, "Oh, I have my extra weekly points I can use, not a big deal."  But then I remember that we're going to Fogo de Chao next Tuesday for Mardi Gras.  All you can eat meat will definately require a lot of points...or I just don't eat that day :). 

I'm kind of thinking at this point, that as long as I'm down half a pound on my weigh-in on the 12th I'll be happy.  That means I've pretty much maintained through this weekend and dinner Tuesday, but I'll still hit my 5% loss.